100920

The invisible killer
misinformation spreads faster
than the coughs and headaches
disinformation spreads faster
than the deadly spheres
chaos spreads faster
than the white-sheeted forms
so why you come around
waving your test results
knocking on my bunker door?

082020b

 

a pulsar

gently vibrates the cosmos

I blame bad fish

061820

I wait for the dog

to get out of the hospital

flowers nod

under the hot blue sky

she's waited for me

so many times

061720

the dog scares us

won't eat, won't drink

all day at the vet

we scare her too

waiting for test results

the dog scares us

031820

rattle in my chest
doesn't seem so bad today
considering

031520d

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Expert advice on how to deal with Covid-19

012620d

UTI

Shook me
It shook me all night long
Yeah, it shook me
Made me think I was standing
Held to the bed
For dear life
Sure I was gonna hit the floor
Made me think I could get a grip
Hadn't had one
More than ten years gone
It shook me baby
I thought they did tests on me
I thought I was walking
Walking with my dead father
If I did drugs
And it was like that
Wow, man
They can keep it

012520

lucid now
last night before antibiotics
I knew I wasn't

121519b

Home from my first holiday dinner
of the season
grateful to have left the hospital
in time for fellowship among friends
wanting to pass this feeling along
to you

113018

to the hospital

but as a visitor
a novelty

112118b

doctor's appt
instead of breakfast with family
sun streams in

092418c

I find it really annoying when all alarming symptoms recur after I spent three weeks in the hospital last month. I do not want to go back again. But I can't afford to just ignore this.

On a related note. I did get a fair amount of work done on the next issue of Dreams & Nightmares this past weekend, but not enough to make up for any more time away from home!

022218b

you cough
and sound like you are dying
spring flowers reply

060817d — Cancer post 1

Cancer

Earlier this year I had a routine annual blood test would suggested a possible problem with my prostate. This led to a visit to a urologist and then a biopsy last week, which confirmed that I do have prostate cancer. At least some of the samples indicated a rather aggressive form of it. Today I had a CAT scan and a bone scan and I guess I will find out in about a week what those show. At that time, we will decide what to do. Some form of treatment is indicated, because this is not one of the relatively benign varieties, and because I am not old enough to just calmly die of it.

I wasn't sure if I wanted to talk about it, like Xeni Jardin of Boing Boing did about her breast cancer, but I decided that I do. It might help me and it might help other people as well.

Trying not to get my hopes up too high, but then again, why not? That way I can be optimistic, at least for a while. And optimism feels good, which means it reduces stress, and that is good for you.

I have already made one decision though. I am going to eat out more often!

And perhaps it would be good to end all of these with a short poem. Again, why not?

today I ran over
several fire ant nests
because they annoy me
from now on
live and let live
will be my guide

122815

A year of illness for me: March till now. I spent most of spring, my favorite season, and all of summer, indoors. Still fighting lingering effects.

my mind is stll
in the end of last winter
this one's timid like it'll
be the first on Earth
26C Christmas week

will we ever see snow again?